My True Love was a Twin Flame

My entire life has been a spiritual journey. I have been walking in two worlds from the moment I was born. Living from my souls awareness and reconciling it with my human experience. I have always been psychic, multidimensionally aware, sensitive and awake to the energies around me and that surround experiences for as long as I can remember.

My journey has been about loving myself as such, as the sensitive and aware soul that I am. About giving myself permission to be who I am and live authentically as a highly sensitive human. A journey of mastering my gifts and being a light in the world where I see too much suffering and darkness.

So when I met the love of my life, when I experienced being home in another, a feeling that you don't even know exists but you have always longed for, I was in awe. Awe of the beauty of what love could be, of the potential of true unadulterated soul connection between two people, of finally being sexually, emotionally and intellectually fulfilled in ways I didn't even know I could dream of feeling. I felt I had finally been given the keys to the kingdom. Everything just clicked into place. For the first time in my life I didn’t feel alone. I didn’t feel like I was walking in two worlds. I finally felt like I had merged with my other half and that merge had anchored me. I was connected to another soul, to God, to the universe. I realized the reason I was walking in two worlds was because half of me was missing and now I could finally experience peace and belonging. It was such a relief. A relief I didn't even know I desired. And for a short time I lived heaven on earth through this love. My life finally made sense.

And then just as quickly as this beautiful love came into my life it started to leave. And I chased and I fought to keep the love. This beautiful soul. And so began my true journey. The journey of Awakening to a level of spiritual truth I had never encountered. Of seeing truth in an entirely new way. Of finding a solid path of purpose that had eluded me before in many ways. I find myself in acceptance that I experienced something fleeting. The realization that my true love was a Twin Flame. What does that mean? It means I had a Spiritual meeting with the higher realms through another soul. It means the “out of this world” experience wasn’t about finally finding my true love. It was about remembering and experiencing God through another soul. It means that the other half of my soul gifted me the remembering of my true state of being. Remembering connection, potential, and love beyond this world as I have experienced it. And through that remembering, through that feeling of heaven for a moment in time now I can recreate that resonance within myself. So that I can live in the burning love of God as the light that I am without the heaviness of the darkness Ive always been carrying.

I found True Love in my Divine Counterpart so I could reclaim the lost part of myself that is Love beyond words. So I could begin to live in my own wholeness as Love within God. Not separate from God or Love but the Journey of true experience and felt knowing with my beautiful body that oneness is within me.

A friend asked me, “If you hadn’t ever experienced love before then what were you doing in your past relationships? Why were you with those people?” And initially I thought, Why was I with anyone? Why didn’t I realize that it wasn’t love? Why wasn’t I seeking true love? Was I so broken that I just accepted life and relationship as less than my heart desired it to be? My truth is that It isn't that I didn't love or experience comfort in another. It’s that I didn't know Love, true love, true comfort, true bliss, true connection until I experienced it. The experience of a Love so intense that it burned away all illusions of Love. And you can’t unknow what you know. And now I know Love.