Twin Flame Separation Sickness

I’ll start by saying. I'm a really private person. Even my closest friends don't know my story. Ultimately I believe we are more than our story. We are our Soul and our Soul is infinite.

I started blogging to survive Twin Flame Separation Sickness. Which on some days feels like it might kill me and when it started I was certain it would.

In 2015 my guides told me to start to prepare my sacred centers and they taught me how to do just that. For months I worked to get the centers activated and connected in my body. These were not Chakras. They were part of an energy system that only the soul that was made for me could connect with. My guides explained to me that My Counterpart is always connected with these centers. Its an energy body we share. They told me that in this lifetime I would be with my Divine Counterpart. They prefer this term over Twin Flame. They probably knew how Hijacked that term “Twin Flame” would come to be. I’ll never forget the day my Divine Counterpart came to me and said “I connected with your sacred centers.” It was really early on in our relationship. We were excited about all of the energetic things that were happening between the two of us. We were blown away by our connection and the deep love we felt for each other. I never told him about my sacred centers. How did he know about them and how to connect with mine? He described what they looked like in great detail and very nonchalantly told me he had connected with them. Part of me was scared because I knew if he left me after making a connection like that it would be painful. In that moment I knew without a doubt this Man was my Divine Counterpart. How else could he know about my sacred centers? Fear cannot exist with love and why wouldn't I connect in every way possible with my person? Fast forward 6 months. Despite all of the spontaneous energetic merging he started to pull away. And by pull away I mean leave and no longer speak to me. I was in complete shock. I didn’t see it coming. How could someone I felt so close to, so deeply spiritually connected with just leave? This was a huge trigger for me. Some very significant people in my life had just walked out. I was very familiar with my Abandonment Wound and had worked with it extensively over the years. But what happened when he left was beyond anything I had ever experienced. My system went haywire. I was so sick. My hair was falling out, my anxiety was through the roof, I couldn’t eat or sleep. He was all I could think about 24hrs a day. What was happening? It felt like half of me was dying. Or was it all of me? As intense as our connection was the impact of him leaving was also as intense. My mind was racing 24hrs a day. How could the person I've been waiting for my entire life decide to leave without taking great care to preserve my heart, my soul and our friendship? Was I really losing the love of my life and the most powerful connection I've ever experienced? I felt like I was losing my connection to God because I could feel the universe moving through the two of us when we were together. Our bond and our love was most certainly supported by the universe. I felt God and my teams of light cheering us on and lifting us up. So why was this happening? Actually I couldn't even understand what was happening. That's because my wounded inner child was so confused about why the people who were supposed to love me kept leaving me. She was in shock, my soul was in shock, I think ALL of the parts of me were in shock. And I was very sick. This intense sickness catapulted me into my second Dark Night Of The Soul. It was so much worse than my first one in 2012. This time it was accompanied with extreme heartbreak, constant energetic pulls and tugs on my energy towards my Divine Counterpart. My heart felt like it was being weighed down by the heaviest chains that were trying to drown me. Every single wound I could imagine was triggered.

I'm still recovering from Twin Flame separation Sickness. It seems to ebb and flow. I'll have a good day where I feel connected to my light and I feel my soul so strongly rising up to say “Game On”. Only to find the next day Im as bad as I was 5 months ago. The difference is now I have tools. I had to upgrade all of my healing tools. I thought after 20 years of doing conscious healing work I had a plethora of tools to heal a broken heart but Twin Flame Separation Sickness isn't a broken heart. It's the beginning of the most intense ego death of your life. So if you are experiencing this, you aren't crazy. Everything within you that is in the way of your souls path is being purged on a fast track that bypasses your ability to interfere. This is beyond Surrender. It is the universe picking you up and moving you to a higher timeline. Its the universe saying ”open to me”. Everything that isn't a frequency match for your new timeline is getting burned away in your fire for your Twin.

The time has come to turn your heart into a temple of fire. Your essence is gold and hidden in dust. To reveal its splendor you need to burn in the fire of LOVE. ~ Rumi

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